I am excited about starting this journey, as well as very apprehensive. The rewards in store for me are great, but the journey to get there will be arduous, depressing and most challenging. I am excited about keeping this blog as a record of my journey and hopefully this will be my motivation and friend along the way. Writing down your feelings is very cathartic and can only ease the suffering I will inevitably face when denying myself against the 100th chocolate bar craving in a day.
For those who believe that losing weight is a simple calculation of burning more calories than you consume, I challenge you to reassess your thoughts. I would venture to say that people of that opinion have never had to battle the bulge for any significant time, if at all. Losing weight is not just a physical thing. You have to lose weight psychologically too. The weight of the burdens you carry, the weight of those reasons why you are the size you are. There is always a reason for your weight (whether it plus or minus size).
So I will be looking, probably for the first time, for the reason I am the weight I am. Once I find it, I will square up to it, study it, question it and try and process it and put it in the 'explained and dealt with' filing cabinet in my mind, rather than the x-files cabinet. Losing that psychological weight will pave the way for physical weight loss and ultimate success. I will be working on both issues simultaneously so they can work hand in hand towards my goal.
You will see that the goals and tasks I have set are not diet/exercise orientated. I know myself better than that. Setting a task of going swimming once a week, or 20 minutes on the exercise bike everyday just wouldn't work for me. I would be setting myself up for a fall (been there, done that, got the grazes). I am not setting myself strict rules to follow for diet and exercise. Life changes and rigid diet and exercise regimes just fall by the way side but pile on guilt and feelings of failure. I have given myself a good long period of time to lose the weight as there may be times when my weight fluctuates like Christmas. I am not interested in crash dieting, or being obsessed with dieting. This whole journey is more about changing my attitude towards food, changing my reliance on it.
I intend to be open and honest about my feelings and what I find in the deep recesses of Me, and as I lay myself open and vulnerable, I hope you find interest and inspiration in at least some of my words. That would be a great bonus indeed. I would be interested to read all comments, so please feel free to share.
Here's to a new beginning...take my hand.
For those who believe that losing weight is a simple calculation of burning more calories than you consume, I challenge you to reassess your thoughts. I would venture to say that people of that opinion have never had to battle the bulge for any significant time, if at all. Losing weight is not just a physical thing. You have to lose weight psychologically too. The weight of the burdens you carry, the weight of those reasons why you are the size you are. There is always a reason for your weight (whether it plus or minus size).
So I will be looking, probably for the first time, for the reason I am the weight I am. Once I find it, I will square up to it, study it, question it and try and process it and put it in the 'explained and dealt with' filing cabinet in my mind, rather than the x-files cabinet. Losing that psychological weight will pave the way for physical weight loss and ultimate success. I will be working on both issues simultaneously so they can work hand in hand towards my goal.
You will see that the goals and tasks I have set are not diet/exercise orientated. I know myself better than that. Setting a task of going swimming once a week, or 20 minutes on the exercise bike everyday just wouldn't work for me. I would be setting myself up for a fall (been there, done that, got the grazes). I am not setting myself strict rules to follow for diet and exercise. Life changes and rigid diet and exercise regimes just fall by the way side but pile on guilt and feelings of failure. I have given myself a good long period of time to lose the weight as there may be times when my weight fluctuates like Christmas. I am not interested in crash dieting, or being obsessed with dieting. This whole journey is more about changing my attitude towards food, changing my reliance on it.
I intend to be open and honest about my feelings and what I find in the deep recesses of Me, and as I lay myself open and vulnerable, I hope you find interest and inspiration in at least some of my words. That would be a great bonus indeed. I would be interested to read all comments, so please feel free to share.
Here's to a new beginning...take my hand.
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