Oh........My............Word!!!!! I have just completed a recording of me singing away to my favourite album (Mammia Mia) and listened to myself afterwards. And all that is going through my head right now is Oh My Word/Life/Goodness... (fill in the blanks)....! It is probably better put by saying that the money I will be spending on my singing lessons will be money well spent indeed.
Gone are those halcyon days when I thought I was just a little rustier than Celine Dion and Whitney. I guess when it comes to building confidence, there is no better place to start than from the bottom and I think that is what I have just hit, firmly with my arse. Was it a mistake to listen to myself? Um... no, probably not. It's true that I have shattered quite a lot of the little confidence I had, but it is also true that I am now in a better position to work on my voice, knowing full well that I am rubbish. It can only get better and at least I don't have to suffer the humiliation of being told by my tutor that I am rubbish and not understand why he said it.
I have my first singing lesson tomorrow and I will attend this with the knowledge that I truly, truly suck, and that it will take a lot of hard work and probably quite a lot more humiliation before I get what I desire - a singing voice which I can be proud of.
Having said all that, I could detect what we could call 'potential'. There was the odd note or line where I actually sounded ok. But I mostly sounded awful to say the least. I know they say nobody ever likes listening to themself, but once I had got over that, I was just listening to something which was cringeworthy. I generally hit most of the right notes and I can carry a melody (if I don't try too hard or too little) but when I got it wrong, boy did I get it wrong. I have no idea how to control my voice and it sounded like I was shouting my way through nearly every song, even the soft ones. A right ear bashing!
Oh well, at least I know now and I have something to compare with once I have a few lessons under my belt. I intend to re-record myself singing the same songs in a few months time once I have put into practice what I learn and hopefully (so very hopefully) I will have improved. Or at least know where I have to put more effort in.
Oh woe is me.... I thought I could sing..... but I can't. Will it stop me from singing in the shower, car, kitchen, bedroom, everywhere I go?... Nope, probably not. I am just more determined than ever to attend my singing lessons and fix it!
Signing off.
Gone are those halcyon days when I thought I was just a little rustier than Celine Dion and Whitney. I guess when it comes to building confidence, there is no better place to start than from the bottom and I think that is what I have just hit, firmly with my arse. Was it a mistake to listen to myself? Um... no, probably not. It's true that I have shattered quite a lot of the little confidence I had, but it is also true that I am now in a better position to work on my voice, knowing full well that I am rubbish. It can only get better and at least I don't have to suffer the humiliation of being told by my tutor that I am rubbish and not understand why he said it.
I have my first singing lesson tomorrow and I will attend this with the knowledge that I truly, truly suck, and that it will take a lot of hard work and probably quite a lot more humiliation before I get what I desire - a singing voice which I can be proud of.
Having said all that, I could detect what we could call 'potential'. There was the odd note or line where I actually sounded ok. But I mostly sounded awful to say the least. I know they say nobody ever likes listening to themself, but once I had got over that, I was just listening to something which was cringeworthy. I generally hit most of the right notes and I can carry a melody (if I don't try too hard or too little) but when I got it wrong, boy did I get it wrong. I have no idea how to control my voice and it sounded like I was shouting my way through nearly every song, even the soft ones. A right ear bashing!
Oh well, at least I know now and I have something to compare with once I have a few lessons under my belt. I intend to re-record myself singing the same songs in a few months time once I have put into practice what I learn and hopefully (so very hopefully) I will have improved. Or at least know where I have to put more effort in.
Oh woe is me.... I thought I could sing..... but I can't. Will it stop me from singing in the shower, car, kitchen, bedroom, everywhere I go?... Nope, probably not. I am just more determined than ever to attend my singing lessons and fix it!
Signing off.
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